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January 2010

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Saturday, January 30, 2010

Ironclad God

A squeeze, a click, a pulse of blue. One squeeze, one click, one life ended. War is a game, its just a matter of who squeezes the trigger faster, and where your muzzle is pointed when you do so. I gritted my teeth as another flash glances of to the left, taking a shoulder plate with it. I'm scared shitless, a skinny kid in a glorified armored coffin. I drag my leg forward, one step ahead, dust scattering at a heavy footfall, not my own. I feel almost detached to it all, a Paladin exploding to my side, my instinctive shot at its assailant, another down.

An ultramarine blast roars past in an electric dance of death, scattering my thoughts. Oh fucking great, scanning the horizon I notice the telltale glowing chassis of an Incube. I kicked down hard, angling up my feet, the hydraulics recognized my action, my Paladin roared up and back in a burst of nuclear powered upthrust. When you see a Baal, there's usually two possible scenarios, its either you shoot at it and you die or it shoots you and you die, either way, standing at one spot too long would mean my glorified iron coffin would earn its ghastly reputation in full. I'm nineteen, I don't fucking want to kick the bucket just yet.

Scanning my surroundings, I quickly ducked behind a raised outcrop of solid iron on the surface, which I forgot to inform you, belonged to an asteroid. Running over my fast receding options, I noted only two plausible ways out of this situation. One, shoot the damn Baal and pray scenario one of Baal logic fails and allows me to live. Two, boost the fuck out of there and hope the Baal does not undertake scenario two. No time to think too much. Fuck this shit, looking up for a final prayer, I prepared to at least die trying to defend myself. But unexpectedly, I saw scenario three.

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I took a deep breath, moments like these are always terrifying to me. The lull before the storm, the cool before the fire, the last meal before the electric chair. I ran a check again, my eyes darting up and down, searching for any statuses I am not aware of. Obviously there are none. I felt the jerk of the drop vessel exiting the hangar, time to enter hell. The fluid flooded in from the sides, I jammed my eyes shut. I had always feared water, especially the prospect of drowning, and these fucking machines had to submerge you in it before allowing control. My face mask snapped close and the nasal tubes poked into my nose, injecting oxygen as i breath. The liquid crawled up my body, until finally, i was fully submerged within the cockpit. Oh fuck.

A gigantic, jarring surge took my body in full, it felt like someone just jabbed a thousand fucking chainsaws into every part of my body. I had refused the drugs needed for this stage, my own bloody fault basically, but refusing intoxication is indeed part of me which stands firm. The interface sync completed in under a second, it felt like a century. I opened my eyes, i looked upon darkness, illuminated only by a golden glow, from me.

I flexed my extremeties, checking for any sync errors, none, I flexed a new part of me, at my back, it responded as if it has always been there. Steeling myself for the scene soon to unfold, i prayed a final prayer. The impact happened right on time.

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Scenario three rocketed down from the heavens, a Lance of Longinus, from outer space. Deep into the ground it buried and for a few moments lay still, almost serene. I'm saved, i sank into my seat and heaved a breath of relief. They had come. The Angels.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Random Insanity II : Of Twos and Ones

Today my friendly neighbourhood mamak dude surprised me when he gave back some change. He was pretty damn convinced that a 10 cent was in fact a 20 cent.

My housemates then went ahead to educate him on the virtues of knowing the difference between two and one.

Its a simple lesson.
The most important numbers of our lives.



We all love it (guys)



We all have it (guys)

But mamakman doesnt seem to understand the concept.
He insisted 10 cents is 20 cents.

Maybe he was hoping my housemate will put it under his pillow. And the Tooth Fairy will correct his problem.





I'm sure he's got all the twos and ones you'll ever need. Just hope he's not gay =D

Saturday, January 16, 2010

Deviation I : Why?




Hi. My name is Faris E. I'm 18. I'm dying. A bullet hole lies on the skin where my heart beats behind. My vision fades, blacks and whites fill my eyes. Harbingers of my doom. I smile and blink.

I'm six, running down a playground. Around me were other kids, they were smiling. I am smiling too. I looked around, we were all playing, running, we all looked similar, our skins were brown, our hairs were black, our eyes were almonds. We played ball, I kicked it over the fence. I chased for it. Over the fence I went, chasing a receding shape in the distance.

I stop. In front of me stands a child. I am confused. I am scared. I am curious. I know that people have brown skin, black hair and almond eyes. This child had white skin, hair so dark it shines blue and beautiful eyes, like cats. I froze. The child smiled. I opened my mouth to speak. I was surprised by a shock. My cute little bracelet, with a bunny on top crackled in blues. I had did something wrong, I ran.

That night I told my mum what I saw, she beat me, the only time she ever did. She forbade me from crossing the fence at school ever again. I cried.

I opened my eyes, I'm 18 again, a blue bracelet hangs on my wrist, crackling in blues. I looked up, cat eyes stare, beautiful dark blue hair fell around my face. Tears fell on my face, outrage screams from full lips. I say its okay, I blink.

I'm nine, I quietly climb the fence. There are flowers in my hands, the school garden had bloomed. I see her in the distance, her cat eyes lift in a smile that gave me a weird feeling in my tummy. I had never listened to mum, I had come out and seen her since the day I met her. Her name is Abigail H. She is one year older than me. I like her. She is nice, and she teaches me many games. She hugs me. My bracelet crackles, she is thrown off me, I fall to the ground, the pain, I blacked out.

I looked around, people were shouting. People were crying. In their hands they held signboards, in their eyes they held courage, in their hearts they held hope. Abby hugged me to her body, the bracelet crackles. We braced through the pain. She kissed me lightly, her beautiful eyes windows to her broken heart. I closed my eyes and kissed back.

I'm twelve, I rise up from my feet. I had finished my prayers. The bracelet shines, time for Gather. I go to the hall, around me were brown skins, black hair and almond eyes. All I see is cat eyes and raven blue hair. I clenched my teeth and listened. A man stands on the pedestal. Age lines his face, hatred shone from his eyes, ignorance filled his heart. The elder speaks of white skins and black skins. They are monsters, they are fiends, they pray to demons and false gods. They are heathens, infidels and they don't wash their asses. I closed my eyes, cat eyes looked back at me, she is the most beautiful person on this earth. Why? Why are they lying to me? Abby is none of things but so much more.

My eyes opened, tears lining them. Abby stared back, she says she loves me, I said I love her too. The life was leaving me, but I had to do this. People in front of me raised fists, sticks and rocks. I stood up and held their hands, brown hands, black hands, white hands. In surrender they cried, they hugged me, they screamed in anguish. Gunshots rippled the air. I looked at a figure in front. He had a gun in hand, he was the one who shot me. Shoulder to shoulder around him, a wall of similar people trained death on the people around me. I looked into his eyes. His gun was raised to the sky, his eyes reflected remorse, his heart filled with revolution. The gun fell, to my side he ran, arms in the air. I blinked. I smiled.

I'm fifteen. I sat side by side with Abby, our hands were together. Our bracelets crackled. Mine blue, hers red. Pain shot through our spines. Constant, jarring, throbbing. We didn't care. We shared our first kiss. I turned back, hoots filled the air. My friends sat by the trees, brown skin, white skin, black skin. Lights blared suddenly, sirens filled the air. Black figures arrested them, gunshots filled the air. I ran with Abby, two followed behind. We were lucky, four escaped, six died, two arrested. I looked at my bracelet and screamed. Eyes closed, I roared in frustration.

I opened them to almond eyes. The soldier cradled me on the right, Abby on the left. He screamed sorry, his eyes orbs of deep regret. I whispered its okay, my voice faltered. I looked at the black figures, many had lowered their arms, they had finally asked the question, Why? I smiled, I closed my eyes for the last time.

I'm seventeen, tomorrow is my birthday. I am not happy. I was watching TV. Brown skins were clad in black, shooting white skins and black skins. No one defended them from this. Governing steel shone from uniforms. I stood up, I took a signboard and wrote something. I walked into the streets, my parents screamed in the background. I met Abby, her face was set, her eyes flamed with pride, her heart beating with love. We walked down the road. Others joined us. Dozens came, hundreds came, thousands came. I raised my signboard.

I asked the question Why? so many years ago. Abby gave me the answer. On the board is my conclusion. Brown, white and black. They are no different, they are one colour. The colour of humanity.

On December 12th 2070, Faris E was shot, it was his 18th birthday. He was protesting against race separation, against hate. In his final moments he stood up and held back hands of violence. In death he smiled his love for humanity. His bracelet broke off. Where he fell, others rose. Finally, they asked the question.

Why?